Miscarriage in uterus and didn't know eptopic burst

For 6 weeks I've been trying to naturally miscarry. Thinking I had terrible gas pain a few weeks ago, I just thought it was my hormones going down causing it. Little did I know my eptopic burst and formed blood clots on my ovary and intestine!!! I only went to the er because I had a fever and had a mastitis from nursing my toddler. At any moment the blood clots could have detached and I would've bled out. This is not my first eptopic. I had one in 2009 and if I hadn't been going to the doctor and it burst in the parking lot of the hospital I would've bled to death. I now only have one ovary and a tube that's about 3cm. I'm so thankful to my doctor and surgical team for saving my life. He said that I was very lucky. The main reason I didn't go to the doctor for weeks is because I didn't want to close my daycare. I always feel so bad about it. We'll I'm now closed for 2 weeks and I will now put more value on my own health and needs. I had no idea it was a tubal because they seen a misshapen sac and embryo in my uterus. Anyway I'm very thankful to be here to tell you all my story. I'm not sure if I can get pregnant again without invitro. My husband has no daughters is the only reason I kept trying. I should've went to my follow up doc appts to make sure my levels were going down. Now I realize my health is more important than inconveniencing others.