Insecurities

My bf and I are going to have sex for the first time (my first time) on my bday. I am a virgin first bc I’ve always been taught to wait after marriage. But I’m ready now. The only thing that is stopping me are my insecurities about my body. I do not find it attractive. My boobs sag, areolas are the size of a palm, and my bikini line has razor bumps and dark spots that won’t seem to go away. I know all of this is natural but based on nice/perfect bodies I’ve seen, my mind is so set on that’s how mine should look. Any advice, tips, & thought would help😩