I had an abortion November 26th, my boyfriend was gone at boot camp... he ended up getting discharged and coming home, said he regretted having me make that choice and that I had to do it alone. I thought it was the right choice but lately have been feeling really guilty about it. He wrote in one of his letters that he would be prepared and ready if it happened again, and would be happy to have it with me. However he’s now been home for three months and he’s been very particular about (tmi) not getting any cum inside me, I’m also on the Nuva ring. He never brings up the abortion anymore, and if I bring it up he seems indifferent to it.

When I was pregnant, his whole family disowned him pretty much, and me, said they’d have nothing to do with it. His sister took me to the abortion and things with his family calmed down.

He now has a good job, and we live together.

I think I could be pregnant again though I don’t know how because I am on birth control and he pulls out (I know that by itself isn’t birth control but coupled with birth control I thought it would be effective. I guess we should have been using condoms in addition to birth control but he never put one on even though I bought them.)

I took a test today and it has a very faint line.

I’m scared he will leave me if I tell him I’m pregnant again. When I was before he kept saying he didn’t know if our relationship could last through having a child.... he since has apologized for that statement but it still burns in my head. I’m scared of what his will family will think. They might think I tried to trap him or something. I’m scared of being alone.

I don’t know what to do. I’m just scared his family will react even worse because this is the second time this has happened. Can I DM someone?