stoner mamas 💨💨 long post

so i currently self medicate with weed im in the uk so no chance or getting it legally but i suffer some non-epiliptic attack disorder so seizures and spasms and memory loss etc i used to have 20+ seizures a day untill i tried weed i also have severe depression anxiety and a personality disorder i have three joints a day and my seizures are basically not here and im in such a better place with my depression i wanna get pregnant and start a family but will smoking weed hurt baby at all im scared if i stop my seizures will come back and ill be in a bad place with depression any mamas out there that smoked through out pregnancy and baby was fine? ive also recently been diagnosed with pcos as well