Depression and relationship problems while pregnant

I’m going on 9 weeks tomorrow and when I first found out I wanted to get an abortion and then decided to keep it and then wanted to get rid of it and then keep it and now i decided to really get the abortion this week on Friday but I feel so horrible and guilty because I felt this way when I was pregnant with my first daughter and I’m so glad I kept her because she is a blessing and I love her. I’m so overwhelmed, stressed, depressed, emotional and have no clue on what I want for myself anymore. Im broken hearted and don’t have the energy to keep going. Being single mom and lonely.