Guy problems

So I have like this guy since kindergarten and we were really close we talk all the time until I got sick and had to leave school I am now homeschooled and I need his help getting something and he was willing to help me and being really nice about it even when I got mad at him multiple times Bc he could not get it to me when I need it but I asked his help for something else that would of been bad and he save me by not helping me (btw he helped me get the first thing I needed this was after) I got so mad at him and we not talk since I really want to tell him that he saved me him did so great by not helping me and that I am sorry but idk what to do plz help