I literally can’t even close my eyes at night without having a panic attack. I have multiple anxiety disorders and I had to stop all my meds cold turkey as soon as I found out I was pregnant because they were absolutely not safe for the baby at all. I was on 4 anxiety meds three times a day along with mood stabilizers and anti depressants and I can’t take any of them now. And every night I even try and close my eyes I immediately feel petrified of someone being in my house or someone being near me or any little creak or noise that happens to the point of tears. I’ve talked to doctors and such about this but there isn’t much they can do because no medicine that would help me is safe for pregnancy. So all I get from other people is “calm down” “just go to sleep” “you’re fine” “just close your eyes and think of going to sleep” but even if I do somehow manage to drift to sleep for a minute I immediately get night terrors and wake up shaking and can’t breathe. Some nights are much easier than others. But then there are nights like tonight where I hear the air kick on and almost cry or I hear my fiancé change positions in bed and the bed will creak and I have to stop everything to listen to every noise for 30 minutes in complete silence before I can even move again. This is just to vent I guess. But also if you’re going through something similar let me know if you have anything that helps maybe. I’m willing to try anything at this point. I can’t handle this.