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Heather

Looking for advice. And maybe help with my mom guilt.

Backstory. Before our rainbow who is 1 month old. My hubby and I wanted 2 kids. In a perfect world a boy and girl.

Getting pregnant was easy but staying pregnant was hard. I had 3 miscarriages all back to back.

In order to carry my rainbow I had to do progesterone suppositories. During pregnancy with her I developed high blood pressure and was borderline preeclampsia the whole last 14 weeks. I had stress test 2 times a week along with multiple visits.

I was induced at 37 weeks because I started to get protien in my urin and it was the start of PE.

Induction didn't go very well, because I was so swollen with my high blood pressure my iv slipped and was filling my body with meds instead of going into my blood stream. They had to end up bringing in a specialist with an ultrasound machine to find my vein and do the iv that way. During the epidural my body reacted negatively and both my daughter and myself heart rate sky rocked then basically flat lined. I didnt progress and needed a c section. Due to all complications during the labor I was knocked out during the c section and the nurses told me I was convulsing during the procedure.

After my c section I ended up hemorrhaging severely and now have became anemic for the rest of my life with my Hemoglobin hovering at a danger rate of 7.7

My heart tells me to only have my daughter and not another child but then my mind tells me I'm being selfish for not giving her a sibling. My thing is, will all these things happen again... what happens if I do it again and now cause so much stress on a baby that they have issues or are stillborn or we die in labor.

Anyone please I want all opinions. I go tomorrow to my dr appointment and I need to get birth control if that is what I'm doing. Thank you

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I am so sorry that you had to go through all that, that's horrible I am so happy that you have a little girl, in my opinion you had a lot of issues with your pregnancy, and like they say every pregnancy it's different, if you want to give your daughter a sibbling how you thought about adopting. I am having a lot of issues with my pregnancy too right now, we have a 3 yo girl and we decided to try one more time, at 4 weeks when I found out I was pregnant I had to go to the ER with heavy bleeding I thought I was having a miscarriage, I had the bleeding until I was about 12 weeks doctors couldn't explain all the bleeding, at 22 weeks had to go in with contractions and I have been in bed rest ever since, I am now 28 weeks pregnant have to take meds every 6 hours had to get steroid shots for baby's lungs, it's has been a hard pregnancy mentally and emotionally, if I would of had this issues with my first I wouldn't had anymore at all. I believe that there's so many children in this world that need a home and a loving family, my husband and I have talked about adopting since we want another child. Best of luck to you dear.

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I have one little girl who is now 4 and we always wanted at least 2 or 3. We tried for 2 years which included 1 loss and got our sticky bean in early October last year. I was very sick with hyperemisis and suffered with SPD (pelvis separation) but it was straight forward enough. At almost 19 weeks I nearly died as I got a massive clot (saddle pulmonary embolism) between my heart and lungs. I was in ICU for 3 nights and in hospital for another 10 days. We had 2 scans there baby looked ok but the day after I got discharged we had our anatomy scan and discovered baby’s heart had stopped. After being so sick myself baby wasn’t strong enough to survive the trauma on my body. We’re all devastated, baby girl was born sleeping on feb 1st. I suppose where I’m going with this is that even though this pregnancy went so wrong in every possible way we still plan to try again (when I’m allowed medically) as mentioned every pregnancy is different and while I’ll be extremely high risk for any future pregnancies I think once we know the risks and can take the right medications and precautions I trust the doctors and teams I have around me. Best of luck in any decision you make x