Defeated

I got told my little girl would come home this past Monday which she didn’t,she had open heart surgery last Tuesday and today they tell me she has a narrowing in her left pulmonary artery and will have to have a cat scan to see if it’s from the way they stitched her up or from tissue blockage. My poor girl is only 3 weeks old as of tomorrow had the surgery before she was 2 weeks old and will continue to have them through her whole life.. I just want my baby home and do what mothers do, I’m feeling defeated each day she’s in the hospital and knowing I can’t actually do anything besides hold her..