Going crazy

I have been feeling incredibly down and labile lately. Some days I’m all full of anxiety and some days I just want to cry. And then some days I do just cry these big sobs. I feel like my brain is spinning and also that I complain too much. I guess it’s hormones? I don’t think I’ve ever been this sensitive to everything. I guess I’m just having the hardest time doing just about anything and then I’m terrified that something is actually wrong with me and I should be wary of post partum depression. And I am terrified of it because my husband likely won’t be home long and he travels hours away daily for work. I don’t have a lot of reliable people near where we live... I guess it’s just scary.

I think I’m rambling right now so sorry for that, I just needed to get this out and not feel so crazy-or have one of you all tell me if I am.