I need help!

Hello laddies👋🏽So I was diagnosed with bi polar disorder back in October. I started treatment for it but quickly got off it, personally because I don’t want to be dependent of a pill. Like what if one day I can’t take it anymore, am I not going to be able to have a good day with out it? But anyways that’s besides the point 🙄 I’m looking for natural remedies (please don’t say smoke weed... I already do... everyday...) or any advice from someone who maybe has went through the similar or has some experience 🤲🏽🤲🏽I’ve noticed lately it’s been getting a little difficult to keep my cool to the point to where I will just snap over someone even looking at me a slightly funny manner. To top it all off I work at a barbershop and I’m in the first chair so I’m constantly dealing with all types of personalities.. I would hate to make it on worldstar for fighting the client 😩😂(it’s a joke) but please help!