I need a hug

So last night i was finishing up the online application for my infertility appt in 2 days. But needed more info from my mom. She writes me today to tell well there are 4 cases of downs syndrom, one case of extra sensory disorder, 3 cases of blood clotting disorder, high susceptibility to cancer. Plus one case that we know of of yellow johndis while pregnant, heart disease, a few cases of advanced PCOS. (One family member nerve could have kids, and another just died suddenly.) Oh yeah and my moms aunt died of ovarian cancer.

I got a hug from my husband but i need a huge mental hug today.