Better off alone...

Currently in a relationship that I no longer want to be in (haven't wanted to be in for years) but I don't know how to leave. Call it weak and I would agree. But how do I find the courage or strength to leave? Especially now that I'm pregnant again.

Unfortunately, I'm 16 weeks pregnant and we already have a daughter together who's 6. I guess I'm like my mother in this way, was never happy but never left.

I know I'm doing myself, my child(Ren) and him a disservice, but I feel stuck and lost and confused.i know on my in I'd be a better person, I was a better person at one point, but I lost myself somewhere and I don't know how to find her. I took care of myself once upon a Time and loves myself once upon a time, but now there seems to be no trace of that... One would think I was a bummy slob who never gave I f***. But I did care at one point.

I don't know what happened.

Just venting because I'm lost with no one to talk to.