C Section Disappointment?

I ended up having to have a c section because my baby was (surprise) breech, and I can’t seem to shake this disappointed feeling. It’s 4 months later and I’m still thinking about it! I know it seems silly to feel this way. I have a healthy, beautiful baby. I healed without any serious complications.

But for some reason I keep feeling like I didn’t really get to experience birth. I was mentally prepared and excited to experience a vaginal birth. I craved that empowered feeling; that my body could do something so incredible.

Instead I’m left feeling like a failure, so I’ve been trying to come up with a list of what did go the way I wanted:

• I went into labor in my own - no induction

• I labored for 5 hours with no medication

• I dilated 6cm in those 5 hours

• I handled contractions like a boss

My OB kept complimenting how well my body labored, which doesn’t make me feel any better. When I try to talk to my support system they dismiss my feelings because I “should be happy I have a healthy baby”

My daughter is everything I prayed for, but I’m still disappointed that I couldn’t birth her myself.

Maybe I can get over it if I know I’m not alone. Anyone else ever feel this way? How’d you shake the feeling??

My princess when she was born. 👑🤱🏼

EDIT: Ya’ll are the best. Thank you for the sweet words, the blunt truths, and encouragement. I know that this feeling will pass in time. For those of you that could relate, it’s comforting to know that we are not alone in these feelings. They are NORMAL and VALID. Here’s to physical AND mental healing. ❤️