I Can't Take It Anymore

I'm getting so frustrated. I'm 40+3 and still hardly any signs of baby coming. Last Monday I measured 3 cm dialated 90% effaced, and got my membranes swept. I've only been having period cramping here and there . Last night while in bed I had a small trickling come out I totally got excited thinking it was my water but instead of giving my hopes up I changed my pants and put a pad on to see if it happened again. It didn't . Everytime I get really strong contractions it's only because (TMI SORRY BUT pregnancy ISNT ALL RAINBOWS AND SUNSHINE.) I would have to go poop and as soon as I'm done going I'm not contracting anymore. Every little thing that I feel I keep hoping it's time but it isn't 😭 I've done everything , I did 100 squats , I drink raspberry tea, I'm buying pineapple left and right, I'm actually getting things done around the house that I haven't gotten to during my pregnancy staying active, if I dont have anything to do I'm pacing back and forth , I'm bouncing on a yoga ball, sex, I'm rearranging the living room, bumpy roads . Everything.

Nothing more real than the expression baby comes when they want.

Being over due pregnant really tests your patience and limits.

My tight aching body feels at it's limit 😭 I dont have an appointment until Thursday, I tried rescheduling but my midwife is completely booked Monday and Tuesday. I'm so uncomfy and achy I might just start bawling my eyes out .