Postpartum body pics

It’s so discouraging when you google postpartum pictures trying to gain some relation with your current body after delivery. That’s wonderful for the girls what “snapped” back. With my first I certainly wasn’t one of them. It took me 3 years to get back into “those” jeans. This time around i am more understanding and know what it takes for “me” to get my body back. Today I went back to my pre pregnancy diet. Today is one week postpartum. I was too devastated and depressed the first time around to photograph my progress in the beginning. I remember the first time I actually looked at my stomach in the hospital with my first. I bawled in my bed after that first shower for hours. And quite honestly now I look back and I feel bad I even gave it that kind of power. I should have felt lucky because I had no stretch marks but thanks to google I thought was suppose to have this tiny bulge, not look still 6-8 months pregnant. And the weight is suppose to just fall off like all these other girls claimed....This time I look at my body with admiration because I know what it is capable of achieving. I know that it won’t be just given to me though. I will have to put in effort and work to get back to what I was before pregnancy. So far here are my 3 days postpartum and 1 week postpartum. Also my last pregnant photo. I gained 39 pounds this time around. I planed to track my progress on my insta @beckeyct