Third miscarriage, just happened and I’m devastated

Today I found out I had my third miscarriage and my mind is completely numb. I had one mc in October, a chemical in January and a chemical today. My doctor does consider them miscarriages and even though I wasn’t far along it doesn’t make it easier. My dreams are shattered once again and I feel lost. How can I try to not fall apart try to be hopeful for the future?

I have 2 daughters I just can’t understand...