HELP!!! Cervix confusion

So according to 3 of my apps I'm on peak fertile day. My cervix is high soft open/medium I can't tell had ewcm last 2 days but it's watery today and was getting faint line on opk last few days which I know is negative but today there's not even a faint line. 
Any one able to shed any light for me please I had an early miscarriage last month so desperate for a BFP with a healthy sticky bean.