I've suffered with depression since I was around 16. I honestly think it comes from how differently my family treats me. My brothers pick fights with me and then tell me they hate me and want me gone. My dads side of the family think I'm too much like my mother. Any holiday they ask my sister all kinds of questions like what she's doing. If it wasn't for fb they would never know what I'm doing. My dad comes home every weekend and picks fights with me. My boyfriend does do a lot for me but like today, I forgot to grab his cigarettes while I was out and he was so mean to me. I have two babies and they still don't make me happy. I love them but I guess its not enough. I've also started beauty school and I love it. But my dad acts like its not good enough or a real school so now I'm discouraged. I'm 23 and still live with my parents. I go to school full time. My bf has a part time job making $600 a month and doesn't want a better job because he likes it there. So we aren't going anywhere. In having to apply at 11 to 7 jobs. So basically I'll work and go straight to school. I want to die. I need help but I can't even make myself go get it. Idk what to do.