Newlywed and miserable

My husband and I just got married 6 weeks ago. 8 weeks ago we found out that I am pregnant. Due to immigration problems, we are not allowed to be together. He is in Canada, and I am in the States. We’ve spent the first month of our marriage apart. We may have to spend the next year apart depending on immigration.

I’m 13 weeks pregnant and have had 4 ultrasounds. My husband was not at even one of those ultrasounds. When I feel moody or sad, he’s not there to hold me. When I go to sleep, I go to sleep alone. When I go through genetic testing and await the results, I worry alone and go to appointments alone. I eat alone, I look at baby clothes alone, I make the baby registry alone.

I am newly married, and I am alone. Not because my husband or I choose to be apart, but because some people with the authority to do so are keeping us apart.

I am beyond frustrated, and have never felt so alone in my life.

This should be a happy time in my life; newly married and pregnant, yet I am completely miserable.