Feeling stressed... 😭

Me and my boyfriend filed our taxes together so my child tax went from 541 to 288! And my maternity is up in 3 days!! I don’t want to go back to work I just want to stay home with my little man! And child care Is super expensive here my whole pay check would go to child care! My maternity was paying for my car insurance which was 345 and my phone bill every month... I don’t want to leave everything to my boyfriend! We just got a house he is paying credit cards and a mortgage he is mostly paying for everything! I really love being home with my son I don’t want to go back to work! 😞😭