Jelousy after miscarriage

Recently about a weeks ago I misccaried at 5 weeks. It was very hard through as it was my 3rd miscariage within one year. Itbis very sad and overwhelming with all types of emotions just because we were trying to conceive and this is already 3 consucutive miscarriages. I cant sleep , eat or function without feeling judged pr feeling guilt , but try to hide my feelings and be as strong as possible. Recently my mom found out shes possible pregnant to (home pregnancy test positive) but that she could be further along +10 weeks.

She wants to abort it due to being on birth controll and taking strong medication during pregnacy . But shes also flaunting her pregnacy. I know she doesnt mean to be arrogant but it just hurt my feelings just knowing shes older and the risks but also just freshly healing from my loss. Its just a feeling cant describe like she was almost a grandma , everyone was expecting me with thw belly.. im just so sad.