I threw my vibrator away, but now my sex life sucks. Help!

So I need advice and obviously I don’t want to talk to anyone in my personal life about this. Well I’ve started feeling very guilty when I masterbate. Because I fantasize about other people. Or watch porn. Like I genuinely feel bad about myself every time I masterbate. So I threw my vibrator away lol. That obviously sounds extreme but It was also making me not want sex with my husband because the only way I can get off is with a vibrator. I would masterbate all the time instead of have sex with him. And honestly I think I was becoming addicted to porn. I just felt gross and bad about myself.

Well, now my sex life sucks if I’m being honest. I haven’t orgasmed in over a week. I don’t look forward to sex at all because I don’t get off now. I just don’t know what to do. 😣 I’m so tempted to watch porn or buy a new vibrator. I know this is TMI and again I’m sorry. But I just need advice or uplifting words 😕 I do feel like my sex life is boring now