8 days postpartum

I had my healthy baby boy 3/27/19 l. I’m so in love with him!!! I was induced due to low amniotic fluid. Im struggling with ppd like symptoms 😢 I’ve had 3 pregnancies and this is the 1st time. I’m going to drive myself insane keeping my life on pause for the next 5 more weeks lol. I usually breastfeed for 10 months but due to postpartum depression I think I may just do these 6 weeks and put my baby in daycare next to my office. Hopefully these feelings change because I am normally very against that. What makes sense t worst is the issues in my marriage that lead me to believe infedelity is involved. I can’t stop 10,000 thoughts of believing my husband is cheating from running through my head.

On the bright side of things. I am already back to pregnancy weight. From 184 to 164 in 7 days 😮 the human body is amazing. I had lost 40lbs before this pregnancy and was so afraid I’d be close to square one after birth. I guess my days of being a gym rat and logging every meal before pregnancy really helped!!!