Alone

I feel completely alone. I just moved to a new state where I know no one. My husband shuts me out, refuses to socialize with me, and makes me feel like I'm his maid some days. I asked my mom for advice and she ended up telling me not to contact her anymore because I told her none of her previous advice has worked. My only friend is back in Illinois and doesn't respond when I reach out. My brother wants nothing to do with me and my dad is too busy to ever talk. I've tried making connections here but it's a tourist area and everyone thinks I'm just another tourist. The only person in my life that hasn't tried shutting me put is my in-laws that try to tell me exactly how to raise my son and my 1year old son. I've gotten to the point where I don't know how to continue on and I struggle getting out of bed every day. I've struggled with depression where I shut myself out and said I was alone but I'm actively trying and getting shut down. I know I'm feeling my depression and I'm trying everything I can to fight it and no one is willing to meet me half way. I just don't know what to do anymore