Body issues- not sure if anyone can relate...

I feel so shitty. I don’t know about what you guys have seen online, but it seems to me 90% of guys are into huge asses and thick thighs now. For Christ’s sake, just look at the body type fashionnova promotes. And like, people say we’ve “come so far” and “it’s so great that our society is finally accepting thick women.” NO. This is not a thick woman.

(And yes, that is really posted on Fashionnova’s Instagram with 75k likes.) But people say society has progressed so much because anorexic women aren’t the standard. Um, what the hell do you call that then? Just because her ass is huge, it means she’s not unhealthily thin? She basically has no waist. This is JUST AS UNHEALTHY as every other unrealistic body standard that is promoted.

But look, this post is not meant to be a “woke” post that preaches about the flaws of our society. I’m not trying to make some point here, even though there certainly is a point to be made.

I’m actually just here to ask for help.

I’ve been struggling with my body for years, but it’s gotten so bad that I’m terrified of being intimate with my boyfriend because I know I’m “flat” and that he wants a girl with a big ass. It breaks my heart to know I’ll never be able to satisfy him in that way. His eyes will always wander, and of course he’ll watch that type of porn. And to clarify, I’m fine with my boyfriend watching porn. I’m not one of these people who considers it “cheating” or whatever, it’s perfectly natural. It just feels gut wrenching I will never be able to provide that for him. And please, no suggestions to workout. I do workout. I workout my glutes frequently, high intensity, high protein intake, proper rest periods between each workout. Working out just does not cause me to gain muscle mass. It’s in my genetics. Everyone is different, and I happen to be built like a piece of cardboard.

Even though I’ve devastated for months, it never occurred to me to talk about it on this app until today. I’m really hoping a few people take time out of their day to reply, because I really need the words of other ladies right now.... so thank you, I really appreciate it.