Please know, if this is a topic you're not comfortable with, I am so sorry. I'm needing a place to turn to.

So, I've struggled with a purging disorder for years now. A couple of those years, I was in recovery for the sake of my pregnancy and stayed in recover for about a year after my daughter was born.

Over the past six months or so, I've felt myself falling into bad habits and old patterns.

It started with over-analysing myself in the mirror, disgusted with my postpartum body. Then that grew into weighing myself to the point of obsession. Then came the relapse.

Over the years I've become familiar with relapsing and recovering. This particular relapse has become the worst one yet. I cannot seem to pull myself out of it. I cant seek professional help, I cant afford it at all.

I just would like to hear your stories of you have any. The good, the bad and the ugly.

TYIA!