The hot mess I am surrounded by

I’m not going to judged my mom but she is letting my brothers run all over her. They don’t do what they are suppose to do and they leave dishes in the sink for days. She yells at me for not being helpful when in reality I’m not here to do their chores when she has already told them to. Yes I will help out and clean after myself. I will not let my lazy brothers sit around and not do what they are told. If she doesn’t want to enforce those rules then that’s on her not me. I’m tired of people in my family thinking I’m suppose to parent my brothers when I’m not their parent. They are fourteen so they should understand consequences.

I am only here so I can see a doctor and then I’ll be moving into an apartment with my boyfriend, his friend, and his friend’s fiancé.

One of them left to go to the mall with their friends without permission. I’m like a this is crazy that they are acting like this. One acts racists and says stupid things about people. The other one doesn’t know when to be quiet while he is being disciplined.

I’m glad I don’t have to stay in this hot mess because I can’t be in chaos. I had an emergency to go to the hospital where I have shingles and she didn’t believe it was emergency until I was having terrible pain. She said she’s not taking me to an emergency room unless I have a fever, throwing up, nauseated or passed out when I have had infections that weren’t with all of those. She tried to tell me to mix Advil and naproxen together. So it’s best that I go to my last doctor’s appointment and move my things, if any, out of her apartment and get the rest from my aunts house.