My period is a week late so I took a test today and it showed up positive and my boyfriend and I have been together for 2 years we’re trying to find a house to rent and now is really not the best time for this.. I’m heartbroken because I’ve always wanted children and always talked about things like baby names and cute clothes but right now I’m too young. I’m about to be 20 he’s about to be 21. We’re very safe usually when we have sex but you know things happen.. And we’ve both said that when the time is right we will and that if it should happen we would talk about an abortion. But he always says ultimately it’s up to me I have to carry it and he will love me either way. I just know how much he doesn’t want a kid yet. We haven’t gotten to experience 21 year old things and do dumb fun spontaneous stuff together. I don’t want one right now but I’m conflicted. It feels different because we made this and I’m scared of how I’ll feel mentally afterwards because I am already depressed but we are just not ready..