I want to abort it

Okay, it’s been a really hard decision to come to bc I literally have no idea how I wanna handle this situation, PROS OF A BABY: it’s a baby. it would be really fucking cute. CONS OF ME HAVING A BBY: I have no family no help, the father is too stuck in a dream that he won’t get a stable job to support the kid. He has a commision only job that could literally change at any moment and no coverage no health insurance nothing, he just thinks wanting a kid is enough. The father was only supposed to be a one night stand, then we ventured off into this fuck a week and like little meet up where we just hung out and I thought I liked him, but I don’t and I really haven’t since I’ve been pregnant I’ve hated his guts. He has NO MONEY, I’m struggling like fuck in the money department and shit too I had to kick my bestfriend out bc she almost got us evicted twice, I have the military down my back for a deployment, I’m severely depressed and unhappy, he keeps pleading for a family bc he got someone else pregnant and they aborted and I’m supposed to be his miracle family. But I’m not, I don’t do family and relationships, and I was going to try when I realized I was pregnant but frankly I don’t like him. He’s fine asf and has a great personality sometimes but I’m just not attracted. I really wanted to go to college, and I’m only 19 he’s 27, I haven’t done shit with my life and I feel like no ones gonna want me after a baby, I’m also already a stripper to make ends meet and without that security I’m down for the count and I can’t rely on the dad to do shit when he’s more broke than I am. Am I wrong for wanting the abortion that we can’t even afford?