Insecurities hate myself

So I don't where to start. My husband things I'm not lovely dovey with him. He always get upset of that he says I dont show him enough love that my facial expressions look like I'm mad. I dont look at him in the eyes because I have huge pore and blackheads i always cover myself cause i feel fat I'm 5'2 weight 125 I'm curvy and have stretch mark and cellulite he says he loves me the way I am but I'm still so insecure I hate it I wish I could be different I just dont want him to look at me I feel gross. We been together for 6 years he gets mad that I haven't changed in so long he says he loves me the way I am.

I Hate my self the way I look the way I am I just hate myself