Freaking

Tomorrow/today I file for divorce and deal with getting custody of my kids. I’m so scared it won’t go well for my kids. Their dad is not nice and has a bad temper he constantly harasses me and tries to use our children as tools or pawns to hurt me. The only good thing is he lives in Washington state. But I’m freaking need good vibes and prayers I keep having anxiety attack all night ahh. I know I’m doing the right thing for my kids and their mental and emotional health but damn this isn’t easy. Never thought it would ever in my life come to this. They deserve a good happy life and I have that and their keeps trying to ruin that and it throws my kids off :(.