I just keep thinking oh I need this or maybe this will make me feel better but really nothing can fill this void I have, sometimes i feel empty, alone, numb.

Sometimes i dream of myself free in the cold ocean completely at peace, with the sand between my toes and the sun bright as ever.

Then I wake up and cant seem to get out of bed, my friends try to make plans and i can't help but push them away, nah I'm not really in the mood to go out maybe another day

And the cycle starts again

Everyday.