3rd pregnancy worry!

This will be my 3rd baby. But I have had a couple of pregnancies in between that I ended up having to have d&cs for. The thing that worries me all my previous pregnancies I was violently ill (vomiting)with severe panic and anxiety to the point I couldn’t function and was suicidal. Could not stomach any food and was vomiting all day everyday. This pregnancy I have had brief nausea, headaches and tired but don’t really feel “pregnant” my tests have got darker and my digitals are going up in weeks! But I can’t help but worry being that I’ve never really felt “normal” as such in a pregnancy. Anyone else felt this way or had this issue in pregnancy? Am I worrying for nothing?