I think I’m at the point of giving up😔

So I have been married twice and my first marriage had 3 beautiful children 😊 then fast forward to marriage number two and had a beautiful son who passed away and that man was found guilty of hurting my son and causing his death 😢 if you can imagine the pain I went through it was way past unbearable never wanted another relationship or a child now 13 years after that meet my current husband (been married three years) the most understanding man so sweet help me through the tough days loves my children like his own so then last year surprise we found out we were pregnant and I had mixed emotions but started getting excited and at 20 weeks lost our angel 😢 then towards the middle of that year transitioning from patch to pills it happened once more and at 12 weeks lost another angel 😢 we could not bear this and I especially couldn’t handle anymore losses 😔 then we had his fathers funeral and so much going on I was not consistent with my pills and here we are with miracle number three but tragically my angel was gone at 15 weeks😢 we were so ready and this keeps happening I feel like I am done and giving up and my husband so sweet saying it will be the right time when god says and so hopeful and don’t want to break him down by saying I just can’t 😔