Empty...

Well it happened. After THREE years (which I know isn’t a horribly long time, but me bein 22 it feels like a lifetime) I took him back when he cheated I took him back when he said horrible things I stood by his side I spent time money effort and energy just for him to walk out on me, again... the day I was going to my gynecologist to figure out WHY I can’t conceive. His ex wife is pregnant with his second child after he left the first time back in October. I’m broken I’m numb I’m crying and I feel helpless. again. Because I ALLOWED him back into my life and heart and In the end it STILL was not enough. My journey to TTC has ended again. I don’t even recognize myself anymore. Who am I?