Constantly on edge

Since my baby was born 6 weeks ago I’ve felt constantly on edge at home.

Even if someone else is watching him and he’s sleeping I’m constantly just waiting for him to cry.

I’m just waiting for the second I need to take him back or attend to him, I can’t relax or take a nap when someone’s watching him because of how stressed I am.

I just sit there, staring at nothing, waiting to hear him make a noise.

Sometimes when someone’s hold him I’ll stare like that, I won’t notice I’m doing it until they gently say “Go ahead, I got him” even then I just move to a different part of the house and listen.

I cant help it, and it’s genuinely really getting to me. I don’t have anywhere else to go besides the house, and I don’t have friends to talk to about this.

I have help to watch the baby and his dad is really good about giving me a break throughout the day but I feel like I never get a break because I’m constantly waiting for the baby to cry.

If the baby is close enough for me to hear him (i.e : in the house) then I am on edge

But I can’t leave because I just don’t have anywhere to go if I did and no friends to go out with.

His dad has a few friends he goes to see during the week so he gets a chance to go out and have other mental stimulation so I believe he just doesn’t understand the immense weight I feel being under so much stress constantly.

I just feel like I’m going to break...