EDIT : Fuck off with your baby photos and announcements

I am so fucking sick and tired of seeing ultrasounds and announcements and bump photos and gender reveals and all things baby!!!! I miscarried in September and had to abort in March because my body physically couldn’t support my pregnancy. I had no choice but to go to a planned parenthood for the procedure and got played. I had already spoken with my obgyn back home and she said I would be exactly 8 weeks from what she calculated and when I went into the planned parenthood for my ultrasound they tried to say I was less far along than I truly am (saying I’m 6-7 not 8) and said “it’s a blob of cells” and “you can’t see anything” but I knew that was a lie but I knew I had no choice other than to abort because my body couldn’t sustain a pregnancy in my current condition. I am just sick and tired of scrolling anywhere and seeing ultrasounds at the same gestational age that look like perfect little babies because i know that’s what I SHOULD have been able to see on mine but the tech purposely zoomed out and said “well I could zoom in but you really won’t see anything”. And preached continuously about how abortion is better than motherhood and women with kids can’t be successful. She didn’t know me or how I felt but just saw a young pregnant woman. I want my baby and I can’t have her back and never will be able to have her back and I just wish I could stop seeing everyone else around me getting what I can’t have. I know it’s selfish and people will judge me badly when they learn I did abort but that doesn’t change how I feel. That baby was loved and wanted but I knew we would both suffer

Edit: really sorry I think I didn’t make this clear in my post. When I am talking about my frustration seeing all the baby related things I don’t mean for all those women who are happy about their pregnancies and enjoying them. I mean all the young women I went to school with. To clarify I am 20 almost 21 and many young women I graduated high school with fell pregnant around the same time I did (gotta love abstinence only catholic school sex Ed right?) and these women all have different situations of course but many of the ones I had spoken to fell pregnant for malicious reasons. Such as : “my boyfriend was gonna leave” “I wanted the company and babies can’t leave” “my best friend was pregnant and it looked cute” these are the women who’s posts frustrate me. They are treating CHILDREN as bartering chips or accessories and in my own opinion taking for granted a very beautiful thing that many women like myself can never truly enjoy or experience and it is truly heartbreaking to experience. I hope this clarifies. I would never expect ALL women to stop loving their bumps and babies. I just kinda wrote this post in a blind fury after going through my Instagram.