This baby is kicking my ass! I had my only daughter 23 years ago. I had just tuned 18 when I had her and even though I basically had to raise her on my own , I remember my pregnancy being so different. I was such a happy pregnant women with that glow. Never had a single issue except the unexpected delivery at 36 weeks.

I know a lot of time has passed and since then I’ve accumulated a handful of medical issues including 4 spine surgeries, migraines , and since my very recent surgeries I’ve gained an alarming amount of weight. Not to mention I am now 41 🤦🏻‍♀️

These things have complicated this pregnancy way more than I ever thought. I am now a high risk pregnancy. From day 1 I feel like I just have one problem after another. After a miscarriage in September I’m thankful to be almost in the second trimester. I just keep wondering if this will ever get easy and enjoyable!

Constant migraines , swollen sinuses, high blood pressure, insomnia, nausea, severely increased back and leg pain , gaining even more weight. Being tested for preeclampsia and gestational diabetes, being referred to maternal fetal medicine and a nutrition specialist.

I feel like I’m getting beat up constantly. Failed to 1 hour glucose test. I wish my life up until now had gone differently so I could have found myself in a better position earlier to have more children. It’s been so hard. And now my husband is likely getting deployed a month before I give birth.

I was told that I will likely have to have natural childbirth because of the location of my spine surgeries that ended up leaving me with a whole in my dura and was leaking spinal fluid , which let bacteria in and I almost died with bacterial meningitis. I can’t imagine the pain of not only the childbirth but with no epidural and severe existing back pain from my injury and surgeries. Do they numb you with a spinal epidural for c sections also ? Idk why they wouldn’t just opt for that. It’s all overwhelming!

Anyway just needed to rant a little. Thanks