You know when you don’t talk to your best friend for month so you don’t bother them because they’re away at college and you feel bad about yourself because you don’t go to college because you’re poor and dumb but you can’t bring yourself to text them, they’re probably busy and having a good time, they have new better friends and you tell yourself that you’re busy too. But you think you lost them or are losing them because you’re not trying but it’s not your place anymore, you got replaced. You see them on social media and go to them inbox but you don’t know what to say so you close it and wait. Are you still friends? If they wanted to talk to you they would. Did they forget about you or are purposely not talking to you? It’s a different kind of heartbreak. You think they don’t need or want your friendship anymore and they were just humoring you in high school. And then you finally text them and you can tell something is different, it’s like they don’t miss you and don’t want to talk because if they did they would have texted you. I miss my friends but I don’t think that they miss me. I’m the only one that didn’t go to college, I don’t have my life figured out, I’m at a dead end job I hate and I don’t have strong connections with a lot of people. I knew one day I would lose them. You know that worst part I’m the only one that’s getting left out. I don’t have any friends because most of the year they’re on the other side of the state not thinking about me. I have no friends.