So yeah I’m currently a mess and have been crying for the last hour and like I’m not a crier. So I’ve had boyfriends before and like I usually handle the breakup really well but this time damn I’m an actual mess. Now me and this guy aren’t actually dating like we’ve been talking for ages and I’ve been waiting for him to ask. Now, when we first met he was into me but I was him just as a friend and time went on I started to fall for him so things changed. We started going on dates and hanging out all the time I was going to his family events and like it was good. Until, a few days ago he got quiet drunk and told me he was having second thoughts anyways he decided to go on a weekend bender so we didn’t get to talk much so I went up to his house today to talk about it and we went on a kfc run and I said we need to talk about what happened and he said there was nothing to talk about and he still wants to make it offical anyways a few hours went by and we were back at his house, anyways the whole time we were hanging he wasn’t being affectionate hadn’t kissed me or anything which is odd cause usually he’s all over me. Anyways his fam went out so it was just us two and he gave me a few kisses and wanted to cuddle and I was like okay so now he’s being normal and then! he looks at me and goes idk about us and I was like fuck like my heart just sank. He basically said that he doesn’t want me to be his girlfriend but he has lost some feelings and isn’t as into me and he has been this whole time and I broke down unfortunately cause like it was hard for me to let him in and for me to fall for him. Anyways we talked about it for a bit and he was stressed about the whole thing and I said to him that I need to know cause we will either become more or it’s over I can’t handle just being friends with someone I care so much about and I decided to end it anyways I got up and said I was leaving so he walked me to my car and opened the gate and everything for me and we were standing at my car talking a little more and he said he still want to be friends and I just I can’t do that so I took off and left balling my eyes out hahaha anyways now I’ve cooled off a bit and this happened just over an hour ago and I’m less mad I just miss him like he’s been the only good thing in my life and I don’t wonna loose him and I just want some advice like what should I do. I guess this is so hard for me to is like I’ve never done more than kissing with a guy and although we didn’t have sex even though we almost did a few times hahah a lot of other sexual things did occur with us which is probably why I’m taking this so hard to idk I just needed to get this all out I really don’t have anyone to talk to so any advice would be great thank u girls 💞💞