Conflicted

So we’ve been ttc, but not really for about 5 months. Some months I track my cm and we bd a lot, other months it’s just been once during the fertile window.

I’m trying to just be relaxed and have the “when it happens it happens” attitude.

My problem is that sometime I think it’s fine that it’s not happening right away (I like my job and how our life is right now etc) however other months I find myself getting really sad about getting a BFN and think it’s never going to happen for us.

I find I’m feeling one extreme or the other.

How do you guys deal during this whole ttc process? Also, how much do you really need to BD during the window for it to happen? I feel that even if we just BD once a few days before ovulation there’s a chance for that month! Right?

Thanks :)