Feeling so lost after giving birth 😭

I know that after giving birth you go through many emotions. But I am so upset at myself. I was having a hard time the last 2 weeks of my pregnancy so I got induced at 39, when they checked before meds i was 3cm so Baby was coming soon no matter what but I can’t help to think that I should’ve waited. I should’ve sucked it up. I miss my belly. And I wish I would’ve gone into labor on my own. Ugh I miss my belly soo soo much . I love my baby girl I love holding her and feeding her and having her be part of our family but I seriously wish she was still in my belly. My due date was tomorrow the 24th.

I consider getting pregnant again and redoing everything. But my husband wants no more kids. We have 4 I would’ve loved 6. I’m only 6 days post partum and I cannot stop thinking about having another. Fixing my mistake. 😭😭😭😭