I want nothing as bad as a BFP. I’m an emotional train wreck this week. Starting AF and preparing to take 4 doses of misoprostol to hopefully soften the scar tissue on my cervix enough to be dilated so something can actually pass through my cervix. Had an ovarian cyst removed last month and they tried to do an HSG while I was under but couldn’t even pass the tube through my cervix to inject the dye. So right now I am physically unable to get pregnant. I have severe insulin resistance that causes blood sugar crashes and migraines. I’ve had a migraine all week. My husband is currently on house arrest and facing federal charges. People think I’m a horrible person for staying with him. If they only knew we are TTC. I’m just so tired of being sick and everything going wrong. I work in an ER and struggle seeing women who shouldn’t be pregnant treat their unborn child like crap. Why can’t I? Why can’t something go right?