Honestly...

I just want a baby already. ☹️ I CANT believe I spent sooooo many years trying to avoid something that now I can’t have! 😣 It fucking sucks!!!

And nothing matters because its not like I can just “will” a baby into existence. I see my husband look at other babies. He’s so good with my nephews and it breaks my heart that I can’t give him one. I feel so broken.