Omg!! Another friend of mine is pregnant!!!!! I can't help but be upset!!!! I'm so happy for her! I'm never not happy for my friends in this good news but I'm heart broken its not me. I'm so in the mind set its just not gonna happen to me.. I'm getting depressed, and the thought that my SO isn't as determined as I am just makes me worse. Just wanna cry.. Stuff my face full of chocolate goodies! Rub my nobaby tummy and watch movies and cry more!