So I broke up with my boyfriend in October.

Since then, I’ve been a bit bitter and not interested in men, I go on dates but honestly felt broken in terms of ever feeling love again.

Recently I’ve been going to places I used to go to before I got into my relationship 2 years prior.

In saying that, I’ve reconnected with an old male BEST friend that I was in love with for 3 years.

He’s known that I’ve loved him despite me never telling him myself, and he never acted on it.

One evening just 2 months before starting my relationship with my ex, after 3 years, we kissed, it was an amazing kiss that we both had wanted for years.

But the moment of “magic” was short lived as he was very drunk and said some perverted things that made me feel heart broken.

I didn’t speak to him or see him for 2 years, often I wonder if my relationship in the first month was my excuse to get away from him.

But the last couple of months I keep seeing him!

We sat down and talked it out and he apologised and we hugged it out.

Now we’re back to being best friends.

Only, low and behold, I’m falling for him again and I don’t want to.

He’s so bad for me in every way, but I can’t help myself.

He likes me too, he doesn’t tell me but others have, he has his own issues with dating and apparently respects me too much to make any advances.

He hugs me and sniffs my perfume and people mistake us for lovers all the time.

And the hug isn’t like a normal hug, it’s a long and meaningful, embracing, stroking, tension filled hug.

I can’t handle being around him, because I know how strong my feelings are, but I love being in his presence and I’m just drawn to him!!!!

I know that even if we were to be together it wouldn’t work out...but I just don’t want these feelings.

Ladies, give me some love life advise.