Ladies, I went to my doctor yesterday, being the last appointment scheduled for the day. I went in excited, knowing I had already received great news over the phone regarding the results of my NIPT, everything testing Negative for all Trisonomies, and I was about to have the gender of my baby written down on paper sealed in an envelope and placed in my hands. And of course, I was going to be able to hear the heartbeat of my Lil One again.

Well, everyone else had already asked me if I wanted to know gender and I told them yesterday, as well as my doctor during my previous appointment that I was going to wait but wanted the info on paper. However, my doctor came into the room beaming with my paperwork in her hand saying how healthy the baby was and how great the test results were and then she revealed the gender as she was talking. And I stopped her and said "Doctor, you just told me what the sex was...my baby is a boy! I was going to wait a little while to find out.... possibly wait til the birth." I will skip the rest of the brief conversation because she tried to jokingly pretend that she could have read it wrong and I could tell she felt bad.

So we proceeded to me laying down and listening for heartbeat but I waited and waited and she could not find it. I Do have any anterior placenta which has made it difficult the two or three times prior but always still heard it no matter how faint or distant it sounded. So then she asked for the ultrasound machine to be wheeled in and tried that. The windows are frosted and do not have curtains on them so the room is bright. She moved it to the other side to try and see better and after squinting for a very long time she found the heart and said it was beating. But continued to keep looking at it as if she was not definite. Due to my position, I could not see for myself. I told her as long as she is able to see it beating than I will be fine. She made a comment regarding the brightness of the room but said she was marking down that she could see a beating heart. But that I could come back in a week and we could try the Doppler again. I am 17 weeks along in my pregnancy. However she is going out of town next week so they did not give me another appointment scheduled until 17 days from now. I will never last that long not knowing for sure. I barely was able to sleep last night. Please PRAY FOR MY SON, and any advice is very welcome! It is a small office so there is not another OB there and to get specialty approval to go somewhere else for another ultrasound takes at least 72 hours and that is not counting this weekend. I am so overwhelmed with emotion. ♡