Just letting some things out 🥀

Omg yall so ive been dating this one guy. Hes the most nicest person ive ever met so loving, so caring i like him sm. But sometimes this dude be ignoring tf outta me and its been recently like we barely have 2 months dating, he tells me he loves that im all up in his business and shitt but its just all bc im such a jealous girl yo!! I want him to be texting me 24/7 i want him with me at all times and he has told me he loves all that!! But sometimes he acts so wierd with me and idk wtf is going on but im so so stressed and angry about it like why tf is he acting stupid with me like whyyyyy and i ask him and he says “no baby your tripping” like obviously im fucken not yo!! It just drives me nuts when hes quiet, when he leaves me on seen like wtf is he doing for him to leave me on seen?!! I feel like he likes for me to be all up on his ass so he can ignore me and for him to feel like a badass!! Idk i just have that thought that he feels like that!! Idk im just so fucken mad yo like fr, and im over here thping this bc i have literally no fucken one to talk about it with!! The only one i talk to is him but im obviously not telling him all this bc his inbox is full of unread messages i just sent him rn of my concerns of my questions of what i feel rn and how he dont answer me!! Ughh idk im honestly hurt as well and scared he’ll walk away from me, like i done gave this dumbass my heart, my time my everything!! And i dont be doing that with no fucken one!! I love him too much but if he plays me or leaves me id be angry and devastated asff specially bc i have high ass standards of him!! Idk whats gonna go down but i felt like i needed to let all this out 😏