Emotions

Most days I do pretty well. However, here lately, I have been an emotional wreck more than not. We've lost two babies at around 5-6 weeks gestation in a little over a year. Most times, I love babies. I love to cuddle them and make faces at them to get a coo or laugh. Lately, I'll do that for a few minutes, then start thinking of what could have been and I start to break down. I hate doing this in public because it never fails someone will come ask me what's wrong, I'll explain, and then the comments start: "Oh, stop trying. It'll happen then." "Just relax. You can't get pregnant if you're tense." "Don't be upset. These things happen (said by someone who has never had a miscarriage)" or my favorite "Well, look at it this way. Be thankful you have the two boys that you have." Almost like the pain I feel is just unmerited because I've had two successful pregnancies.